forgotten

another saturday home alone
no one calls, no one cares
no one answers their phone
they'll be there they say
but when the day comes
they're needed they're gone
they're off in their lives
they're off in their fun
I've been forgotten

waiting

waiting to meet you
as you permeate my thoughts
waiting to hold you
an illusion at hand
i can almost see you
waiting for me, stagnant
but as i appear, you vanish
to forever elude me
ahead of me, anticipating
my every turn, plagued by uncertainty
can i find my way out
a way to sanity
a way to happiness
a way to you

life

I can't find myself
because I've locked myself away
because I've taken a wrong turn
it's all gone, torched
ashes falling, smoke that rises
an escape of longing
torn from desire
without me it can flourish
living within memory
forever it seems
signals of thought
tied up in this game
essence of choice
fed up with the shame
some don't live at all
some live too much
life
so divine
so enriched
so sublime
life
it's our downfall