take it in

i take my pills
to get away
nothing helps
i fade away

my conscience kills
what have i done
my one true love
now holds the gun

i close my mind
i hide my thoughts
guilt are sadness
are what i've got

i can't hold back
what's on my mind
the way i feel
is all i find

so here i am
in full despair
that's how life is
it's just not fair