should but can't

you say i smother you
yet we havent talked in days
im scared i bother you
my life has become a haze
you say you love attention
but i give you too much
i try to hide my affection
just short of giving up
i cry my eyes out constantly
no one has a heart to lend
i dry my eyes but cant get free
would like it all to end
havent written in days
i feel it slipping away
please just talk to me
theres a million ways
for you to contact me
but you wont stay
wont come on so strong
ill just sit and weep
why do i have to wait so long
im acting like a creep
should i get high?
i cant keep doing this
should i say bye?
i cant keep on with this
should i still try?
i cant keep going there
should i just die?
maybe i should, no one cares.